Working on it..

I can't be mean.  It's not in my nature.  When I hear that someone has described me as mean or called me that, my jaw hits the floor.  Truly I am not.  If anything I feel like I'm too nice.  I tend to shut down and ignore confrontational situations, I rarely stick up for myself, and I get my feelings hurt often.  

I'm working on it though. 

I can say that I have gotten a bit better at communicating.  Rather than hiding my feelings after taking the accusation and what not, I ask questions and try to understand where someone's feelings are coming from.  I want to be better not only at taking care of me but also fixing or should I say "fine tuning" my flaws.  Never will I be a perfect person or even come close.  But I'd like to be a better me tomorrow vs the me I am today.  

So here's to getting better at being mean.  Okay, scratch that.  Here's to getting better at sticking up for myself and controlling my emotions so that I can feel hurt less.  Tomorrows a new week.  What a great place to start..