Face Up

I'm looking for more than a little bit
I'm gonna have to find my way through it
Gonna leave a mark, I'm gonna set a spark
I'm coming up off the ground
I won't be looking down

A pretty song for days you're feeling down 

Baby Got Groomed..

My little Archie Bear has been pretty ragged for the last couple of months... the poor guy needed his nails trimmed horribly and a hair cut should have been had long ago.  I always get a little nervous dropping him off to get groomed.  I've heard horror stories of groomers getting to close with the trimmers and cutting doggies to the point of needed stitches.  My little guy already suffers from horrible anxiety and although he acted tough when I dropped him off, I could tell he was nervous.  He pants about 10 times harder than he does when it's just an excited pant.  When I picked him up though I almost cried.  He looked a million times better and I could tell that he felt like a million bucks!  If you know me well you know that my puppies are my babies.  I just need to take him to the groomer more often. 

A Boudoir Studio

I am a dreamer.  Almost to the point where it becomes distracting.  I constantly catch myself snapping..well, myself back to reality.  I like this part of me most though.  Without dreams and goals, is life really worth living.

One of my biggest dreams has been to have my very own boudoir studio.  This dream is one I just couldn't snap back from.  I was determined to make it come true.  It's happening.  I'm off to the store to to buy fabric. I plan to have this all finished by the end of next week.

Never Stop..

I will not.  It's the reason I'm alive..

A McFarland Adventure

So maybe most wouldn't categorize a drive and a picnic as an adventure but for us it was.  We, or at least I, are still discovering Utah.  Tony obviously knows and has seen much more than I since he grew up here.  I was pretty happy to know that he hadn't ever explored Emigration Canyon so we made a little mini date night out of it.  One thing I adore most about my husband is his open mind for adventure.

The drive was beautiful.  We took in the fresh, cool, high mountain air.  So many beautiful trees.  The winding road felt like it would never end.  Until we of course hit a dead end.  We came back down, parked, and had our own little charming dinner of cold sandwiches, chips & salsa, and apples with peanut butter.  Pure perfection.

Thoughts on babies..

Oh babies...where can I start?

Almost 3 years ago I married my prince.  Prior to getting married, we dated for three years.  Two of those three years we lived together.  SINNERS!!  I know!  But those two years helped me to know if he was truly the one.  They helped me to get to know him on a level that I wouldn't have otherwise known.  They helped us to know that we could stand each other for long periods of time, that we were okay with each others habits.  They helped us to really really deep down get to know one another.   

Fast forward to now, and I feel like I still want to live with him for a couple more years before we start a family.  I still want to keep getting to know him.  I want him to be mine all mine.  I want to spoil him. I want us to be able to pick up and go and do whatever we want without having to make plans for a child.  And honestly, I know when a baby comes, even though we won't be able to do that as easily, we probably won't want to.  

My point is is that I love this man so much and so deep down, that I am not yet ready to give him up..even a tiny little piece..to another.  Everyone tells me that motherhood is the most amazing thing and that I will love my child(ren) more than anyone or anything else in the world.  But right now, HE is the one I want that for.  I am not ready to interrupt the Amy and Tony show yet.  I like us and I like it being just us at the moment.  

So many people are always asking us, "When are you guys going to have a baby?"  Especially now since my two siblings who are both younger than I both have babies.  Its a little backwards in our bunch.  Being constantly asked gets a little annoying but when someone asks "well why not yet" get's really old.  Just because someone get's married doesn't mean they have to have babies right?  Thats not our case but I didn't realize there was some sort of timeline either as to how long you're supposed to wait.  

So when then?  We really don't know yet.  We're just really happy with where we're at right now.  I know that we'll never be 100% ready, but right now were 0%..mentally at least.  I love my Tony and right now my time is for him and he wants his to be for me.  So until the time comes that we have a baby...STOP asking us.  It's annoying!  Haahaa!  We'll have one when we're ready.