Working on it..

I can't be mean.  It's not in my nature.  When I hear that someone has described me as mean or called me that, my jaw hits the floor.  Truly I am not.  If anything I feel like I'm too nice.  I tend to shut down and ignore confrontational situations, I rarely stick up for myself, and I get my feelings hurt often.  

I'm working on it though. 

I can say that I have gotten a bit better at communicating.  Rather than hiding my feelings after taking the accusation and what not, I ask questions and try to understand where someone's feelings are coming from.  I want to be better not only at taking care of me but also fixing or should I say "fine tuning" my flaws.  Never will I be a perfect person or even come close.  But I'd like to be a better me tomorrow vs the me I am today.  

So here's to getting better at being mean.  Okay, scratch that.  Here's to getting better at sticking up for myself and controlling my emotions so that I can feel hurt less.  Tomorrows a new week.  What a great place to start..

Autumn

Today I have been daydreaming of Autumn.  And how ironic since it's the first day of Summer.  I am craving the feel of a warm sun on my face with a crisp cool breeze in the air.  Nothing better then being cozied up in a hoodie while lounging on a metal bleacher with a bunch of men throwing the pigskin around on a field in front of you.  Okay maybe I'm not super crazy about football, but I think back to the days of college football cheerleading and can't help but reminisce. 

It's funny how a song can bring up a memory or a period in time.  A season even.  The below song did just that.  I remember when I first bought this album I didn't play it much in the beginning but that coming fall this pretty little tune constantly played on my computer and iPod.  

I yearn for a place to live that has Autumn weather all year round.  How about you?

Reinvention..

I feel like lately I've been on this path to reinventing myself.  It all started with the fact that I have been wanting to change my branding.  I went to lunch with a friend and she gave me a great idea.

"Start a board on Pinterest that is all about you.  Pin anything that is you.  Clothes, home decor, colors, etc."

I did and I was a little surprised with the outcome.  But a good surprised.  I realized that I still have a love for bright colors, bold patterns, and all things modern, but a lot of the new things I was pinned were softer colors, clean lines, and vintage touches.  Believe me, my head was in a whirl.  But now I feel like I am on a path in life that I love.  Things in my world have always been peachy keen.  I definitely can't complain.  I just feel different now.  I feel anxious.  Excited.  I'm really happy with the direction I'm headed with work, friendships, and hobbies.